My answers were easy.
- To be able to bring in extra money to help with household expenses.
- To be able to buy the kids what they want and need, without trying to work it into a budget.
- To not have to ask for help. This is one of the most embarrassing things for me, is to ask for help.
- To be able to pay off the rest of my debts in a reasonable time.
Then I realized I had more whys that weren't money related.
To meet new people.
being here for a little over a year now, I only have a couple of friends. I want to use Pink Zebra as a way to force myself out of my comfort zone and get out there to meet new people.
To be something more to my kids
I want to show my kids more. They see me as their mom. Half of their parents. The person that took care of their dad all their lives. I want them to see me as someone who takes on a challenge head first. Someone that doesn't let things stop her. Someone that will do what it takes to make life a little bit easier for them.
To find myself
I got married when I was 18, and Warrior was born 10 months later. I went from high school to being a wife and mom. During the years I added Tin Man's caregiver to my list of titles. Then came the title widow. Tin Man's widow. Warrior and Sugar Pea's mom, and Tin Man's widow.
I need to figure out who I am now. Who am I besides those things. Who do I want to be?