Tuesday, October 27, 2015

I'm Not A Perfect Mom

When I lived in California I had some so called friends, The Perfects, that thought they were better than everyone.

You know the kind, the ones with the perfect children, no matter what they did wrong.  The ones who think their parenting style is the correct one, and everyone else isn't doing it correctly.  The ones that have no problem telling you that you're doing it wrong.

Yeah I had those friends.  They criticized everything.  Not just parenting styles, but what kind of wife I was.  Looking back now, I honestly don't know why I kept them in my life as long as I did.  I've been free of them for over a year, and I can say I haven't missed them at all.

Taking with a friend I grew up with, I have come to the conclusion that we all have one of those parents in our lives.  Sometimes they are closer than others.

Monday, October 26, 2015

College Lacrosse Scrimmages

This weekend my son's high school hosted a 3 team college lacrosse scrimmage.

Warrior has been looking forward to this for weeks.  Not just the chance to watch 3 college teams play lacrosse, FOR FREE.  But during the 2nd game, the team not playing held a clinic for the Varsity and JV teams.

Warrior got to work with 7 goalies and the goalie coach.  He got to ask questions, have them critique his performance, and ask their tips to better certain things.

Friday, October 23, 2015


Its been a long time since I've been able to say this, but I LOVE WHAT I DO!  I can't believe its taken me this long to discover the awesomeness that is Pink Zebra!

What do I love?

The Sprinkles.  SO many to choose from, but because they are in Sprinkle form, you can mix and match the scents to create new ones.

My favorite scent was Just Peachy, until I mixed it with Vanilla Creme.

Even without warming them, they still smell amazing.   I took an unmatched sock and filled it with Stone Washed Denim Sprinkles and tossed it into Warrior's lacrosse bag.  Now his bag smells like clean laundry instead of sweaty teenage boy.

Soaks.  You can also get Pink Zebra Soaks.  They smell just as great and work great for those areas where you don't have a lot of extra room.  Or access to an electrical outlet.  I have a Pink Zebra Go Card hanging in my car.  Sugar Pea and Warrior both took one to hang in their lockers at school.

Pink Zebra also sells Naked Reed (reed diffusers).  These work great in the bathroom, or as a quick room pick me up for the guest room.

Even better with Soaks is starting on Monday, October 26th, you can buy lotion to add the Soaks to!  I've been waiting for this for weeks.

Shades.  Some people are happy with the Simmering Lights just the way they are.  Others, like me, enjoy covering them up with different Shades.  One of my favorite Shades is the the DIY Shade.  Print out a favorite picture and you have a unique Shade!  These make great gifts for the grandparents, or an end of the season gift for the favorite coaches in your life.

There are even manly scents and Shades.

What's your favorite Shade?  What Sprinkle would you love to try?

Monday, October 12, 2015

Glass Beads + Nail Polish

I love crafts.

So of course I volunteered to come up with some craft ideas for a craft bazaar at church.

I needed to come up with something that would be easy for the kids to do.

After scouring Pinterest for ideas.  I found the well known glass bead magnets.

I decided to change it up a little and use some old nail polish I found in a box.

glass beads

Glass beads

Then I decided to try adding some glitter ones to the mix

glass bead workspace

Glass beads with glitter
glass beads with glitter

Then the kids decided they wanted to make some Donate Life to send to some fellow Donate Life volunteers.  These we plan on making into magnets, push pins, and paperclips.  

What is your favorite Pinterest find craft?

Thursday, October 1, 2015

Danny Gokey Speaks To Me

Tell your heart to beat again

I saw Danny Gokey perform Tell Your Heart to Beat Again one day. about a year after Tin Man died.  I felt like he was reading my mind.  Then I remembered, he was.

On July 9, 2008, four weeks before he auditioned for American Idol, Gokey's wife died from complications during her third surgery to treat her congenital heart disease. The couple had been together for 12 years, and Gokey credited her for his success. - Wikipedia
Tin Man was born with a congenital heart defect called Transposition of the Great Arteries (TGA).  In January 2012 we celebrated our 14th wedding anniversary.  Just 2 months before his transplant and 3 months before he passed away.

That song helped me in so many ways.  Some one finally put what I was feeling into words, but was also telling me that it was ok for me to live and to be happy.  The first part of the song speaks volumes about anyone who has lost a spouse.

You're shattered
Like you've never been before
The life you knew
In a thousand pieces on the floor
And words fall short in times like these
When this world drives you to your knees
You think you're never gonna get back
To the you that used to be
I am not who I used to be.  A huge part of me died when Tin Man did.  I had to search deep within me to put my heart back together and to begin to figure out who I was from that point on.  I still haven't completely figured it all out, but then again, who has?

Then last year I heard his song Hope in Front of Me.

I was in the process of getting ready to move and having to go through all of Tin Man's things and decide what we should get rid of and what to keep.  This ripped open a lot of wounds I thought were healed.

One day while taking the kids to school this song came on.  I had to pull over because I was crying so hard.  I'm pretty sure my kids thought I was having a nervous breakdown.

I went home to look up the song.  I listened to it over and over.  I thought I had made it out of the darkness, but having to get rid of Tin Man's things sucked me back in.  I was depressed and felt like I was falling farther back instead of making any progress forward.

I've been running through rain
That I thought would never end
Trying to make it on faith
In a struggle against the wind
I've seen the dark and the broken places
But I know in my soul
No matter how bad it gets
I'll be alright

This song reminded me that no matter what I was feeling at that point, things would get better.  I just needed to work my way through the darkness towards the light.

Now.  A year and a few months later, I am good.  I still have things to work on, and certain things still bring on the tears, but I have way more good days that I used to.

Both of these songs can have so many meanings, but knowing that his story behind the pain in both the songs is so similar to mine, it brought the songs so much more meaning to me.

These are still 2 of the most played songs in my playlists, but now I listen to them to remind myself of how far I have come and how strong I really am.

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