Maybe I'm Not OK

I requested Tin Man's medical records almost a year ago.  I hadn't heard anything about them, so I was very surprised when they were delivered today.  Not to mention I wasn't expecting 2 large boxes.  I haven't opened both of them, just the first one, which contains 13 reams of paper.   The 2nd box is just as heavy. 

I thought I was ok, but I'm finding out I'm not as ok as I thought I was.   Seeing these large boxes of medical records put a visual perspective on just how bad things really were.